THE CALL OF MY HEART

My feelings made me travel the world & dive deep within myself, meeting hundreds of galaxies & different worlds, jumping everyday in an Unknown I love to explore, where I keep on falling & rebirthing again & again.

Because how could I ever know the steps of a dance that has never been danced before me? How could I know the way of a path that hasn't been walked on before?

I never wanted the safety everybody chase because of fear. I want the fear that comes from real Living.

I have known longing in my bones for places I’ve never been & people I’ve never met.

I've fallen in love with strangers, in the split second that our eyes met, as we passed each other by. I have felt my heart break into a million tiny shards, sent skyward, scattered by the wind of unspoken words, and I have stitched it softly back together, over & over again.

I have let passion bring me to my knees, its hungry fire burning and ravaging the forests of my heart. I have stared deep into the abyss of my own emptiness, and filled it with wine and scribbled notes, written in the ink of my soul.

I have let oceans cascade down my cheeks, cleansing and healing me with their warm, salty tidal waves of release. I have been lit up with an iridescence that has shone from every pore, and I’ve discovered dark, sacred corners of myself, piled high with old fears and wounds, like dusty bones.

I’ve danced all night with my shadows, & I’ve set the world on fire with the determination of my spirit. I’ve felt the collective suffering of every being that has ever lived, and I have known the silent peace found in the stillness of old forests.

I’ve held the world to my chest and cried for it; loved it, laughed with it, and felt lost within it, all at once.

I have felt the burning stab of rejection by not being seen or heard, and I have responded by expanding my heart to embrace the universe and all the stars. I have known infinite freedom beyond fear, and I have wrestled wolves of self-doubt to the death.

I have breathed in the world and all its innocent magic, with delicate tenderness. I have swum in seas of Love, so deep and so wild that I nearly drowned.

Me, Forever Undone.